Who am I? This is the question of my life. One life can be short to answer this question. I never feel belonging in this world. I'm here to cumply my mission, only this. Oh, and I can't forget that I'm here to learn how to love too. I feel that my mission is to be teacher and whiter. I will following my heart.
  This weekend I saw my love boyfriend. Was very good! I was so needy... I want to be more strong and trustful. We talked a lot about our relatioship. We are in a strange phase. Our ways are following in diferente directions... I'm at the last year at my faculty, and I'm doing my final paper. He is fully dedicate to spirituality. I will be patiente. All is well.

  Today I will travel to Asharam, to see my boyfriend. He is going to pay all for me. My heart is more peaceful. I'm learning how to be patince with the things that I want to happen. Yesterday, I road about blackberry's tea and I enchant-me! This tea is a miracle. He cures the sadness, and does very good to health. Today I'm better. Gratitude for the day!

 

Romantic people suffer a lot in this world!!!

Wings

 

 

 Sometimes, I feel insecure, with the way that my life is following... I'm trying to accept that I don't have control in the life. Things happen how it should be. To trust and to surrender. This is my exercise. As said Bob Marley: Don't worry, be happy. Oh, I walk so worry lately! My wings are trying to fly and I'm arresting with my concerns... There is a music that I love very much. Her name is Dream, from Priscilla Ahn. It's about my history! Ohhhh, I miss my childhood!

 

 

This is the lyrics:

 

 

I was a little girl alone in my little world
who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees,
and fed my houseguests bark and leaves,
and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

 

I had a dream
That I could fly
from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark
through woods grown behind the park,
I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me,
God answered in silent reverie.
I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey.
I don't know what's left to say about this life
I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well,
there's many tales I've lived to tell.
I'm ready now, I'm ready now,
I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

 

♥♥♥

To fly

   Today, I'm anxious to do a interview in a school. I need to work. I need to forget my boyfriend a little bit... I hope that all get well in my life. I pray to my  dearly loved godess Kuan Yin every day, to she comforts my heart... I'm feeling that in the life, we can learn how to be happy alone... I was very dependent from my relationship... I want to go out more with my friends and to have fun more too! Afterall, I'm so young....

Lonely days

    Lately, I'm feeling alone. I had cried a lot. My boyfriend went away to live in an ashram, a spiritual place of meditation. He left me.  He doesn't have time to back. And I can't see him, because I don't have money to pay my food there. One time by month he cames to São Paulo.  I'm sad. Once we was so near... Good times... It's hour of to be happy alone...